Logically, I know this surgery is common now. This doctor has been doing it for years and years, but for me it is TERRIFYING. There are a million things to do to get ready: a house to clean, affairs to put in order.
But today I’m just terrified.
I feel dizzy–am accomplishing nothing.
Pretty lame I know, but at the same time, I have posted on days when I felt brave. There have been days when I just cried, but still didn’t feel this fear. I certainly didn’t tell you about it.
Would it be honest if I didn’t post when I feel like a coward?